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2005-11-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

we are so different, i realise. i should have known it long ago, i just kept on fooling myself that there was still a hope of us getting together again. well maybe not again since we were never together anyway. becuase there is just so much difference between us. you despise me. i knew it long ago but just kept on fooling myself. you think choir is a lame bugger cca, you think your ball rocks the world down. you do not bother to expand your social circle beyond bballers and people you perceive as "COOL".

i guess the words of james blunt make the most sense now
"but its time to face the truth; cuz i'd never be with you"

ohwell, maybe im not worth anything to you. but i dont really bother anymore.

because i know im worthy in God's name! i read in the word for today before, that i am of such utmost value to God that He didnt send a few angels to die for me. He sent His one and only son, Jesus Christ!

John 3:16 (New International Version)
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

i am created in God's likeliness and i am gonna treasure the life that the Lord has given to me (:

thank you, Father!

2005-10-29T19:02:00.000-07:00

i wish all this pain could just end, i wish i could just run away from all this.

have i not done enough? is quietness and passiveness a gauge to how good a person can lead? why didnt this happen earlier so at least i could learn? maybe i should just tender my resignation. since nobody actually cares. youre my buddy, i dont want these chim words of wisdom. why cant you just talk to me like jiaying talks to shihui? like sruthi talks to shihui, like joey talks to qi? you dont even care about me. youre more caught up with "dont worry about anything, if you fall, fiel will always be there to catch you". no, but thank you very much. huishan joey joo runting. im not even close to them. but they still hugged me. not you though, even though im supposed to be your BUDDY.

i dont wanna disappoint my mom. and i dont want to disappoint all those out there who truly care for me. i dont want you buggers to think that im only quitting just cuz im on probation.

lisa and i. we're drifting apart. congratulations, now youre gonna have a harder time choosing between the board and choir. while i dont. isnt that great? say im jealous, say whatever you want. i dont care anymore.

pastor mark says, "when you tell God you cannot, He can be your everything".

i will never ever give up, im gonna show all you buggers in the board who only know how to say "i love fea" who i can really be. thank you ling (:

2005-10-09T17:17:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY CHE (:

I MISS MOOMOO.

i slept from 3 to 7 yesterday. i am a pig. i can fly.

yay pigs can fly!

i think im infected with the roo-retard syndrome.

roo re-tard syn·drome
A distinctive or characteristic pattern of behaviour; caused by coming into contact with roo-the-toot the inspiration from the zoo. The sudden appearance of symptoms such as screaming, sleeping excessively and flying. The ~~sudden~~ passion of loving her cow-friend excessively in the zoo.

definition provided by Teo, V (2050). THE SINGAPORE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS.

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gab: you sleep really early. thank you for good luck wish for malay (a million years ago). I AM A SLACKER! SING THE SLACKER SONG!

xiumz: HI XIUMZ I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH ): LONG LIVE PINKMOO. HAPPY GRAZING!

ray: yay buddy we should go out after eoys!

nicole: thank you! (: all the best for eoys!

ling: YES LING IM PUBLIC ABOUT IT. I PROCLAIM TO THE WORLD THAT I <3 LING.

ROO!: HI INSPIRATION YOU FINALLY UPDATED I LIKE SO LOVEEEEEE YOUR BLOG ENTRY! THANK YOU INSPIRATION YOURE LIKE SO SWEET CUZ YOU FINALLY ANNOUNCED THAT YOU LOVE ME. AFTER A MILLION YEARS OF HIDING YOUR TRUE FEELINGS.

passerby: thank you; see you ! =)

2005-10-07T18:47:00.000-07:00

to you:

yea. i realised i really dont know you.

you know, like i felt sooooo happy and high after snapping at you.

i really did. i felt like i was at the top of the world.

if you want to think that way, i cannot stop you.

if im not your friend i wouldnt even care whether youre making an a*s load of noise or keeping as quiet as a mouse.

have you ever thought of the rest of the class who really wanna MOVE ON WITH THE LESSON?

no, maybe not.

but since you dont want me to say anything, i shant.

2005-10-05T05:31:00.000-07:00

(I CANNOT BELIEVE I DELETED MY POST ACCIDENTALLY AND BLOGGER DOESNT HAVE AN UNDO BUTTON)

ROO SAYS SHE'D UPDATE WHEN I UPDATE. SO HERE I AM.

sunday night and monday-
sunday night stayed up till around 0330 to do rs presentation. told myself to wake up at 0500 to continue with my presentation again. and when my alarm clock rang at 5, i went into my parents room and shook my mom up again. she was so shocked and thought she overslept and i forgot to wake up. then she kept on asking me what was happening. but i just groggily went back to sleep. so instead of waking up at 5 i woke my mom up (I DONT KNOW WHY I DID THAT)but went back to sleep instead. WHAT WAS I THINKING. SORRY MOM ):

but i still managed to wake up at 530! and did some final touchups to my presentation and left home at 0615 to go to school to rehearse with sab sham and cherrie. and so i didnt have breakfast. reached at 0630 and the entire school was so empty and quiet. thankfully sab was already in class when i reached. or else i wouldnt dare to go in alone x)

first block was pe assessment. i dont know what to say. heh but thank you jia and husena! i dont understand some people. why is it that they think so highly of themselves, and when they dont perform up to expectations they blame the CIRCUMSTANCES such as the ball and the ground being too hard. and not THEMSELVES.

just my usual rants dont mind me.

recess was spent rehearsing again. and i had to skip recess. which is why i had gastric pains later on. had to go to the sick bay. (so i missed sp&d assessment-at least i have another week to prepare)

tuesday-
in the morning we had geog and acp discussion. the china government is cruel. and halfway through acp i got called to the dentist. shall not tell you what happened at the dentist xD (thank you yajie for holding my hand)

rs, rs. how would knowing about the HISTORY OF EYELINER benefit the society then. someone should really enlighten me. and to any sec2 reading this, thank God you guys didnt get a teacher who sleeps through your presentation. (NOT LIKE OUR PRESENTATION WAS REMOTELY BAD.)

anyhow i thank God for such nice rs teammates! thank you sab shem & cherrie for being so nice sweet and efficient! xD

wednesday-
today was a crazy day. i think our class is suffering from a bout of madness. pre-eoy madness maybe.

had double block lit. lit's fun. should i change combi. HELP.

sab was nuts today. no wonder they say we are what we eat. she was telling us manymanymany leng xiao hua like when do men start saying leng xiao hua (when theyre 18 cuz they have to go dang BING) and which animal loves their stomach the most (the mouse cuz lao shu ai DA MI) she was REALLY CRAZY. for example she slouched in her chair FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HUMAN HISTORY.

ps: yaru is so sweet and nice. she rocks cuz she says I ROCK!

pps: MY COUSIN IS SAFE. SHE DIDNT GO TO BALI AFTER ALL. THANK GOD! (:

(ah i think this is one of my longest blog posts ever. well definitely the longest blog post during which i spent most of my time relating what happens in MY LIFE XD)

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you finally find; you and i collide

2005-09-28T01:27:00.000-07:00

I, OCTOPUS, HEREBY DECLARE MY LOVE FOR REBECCA LING JIJINHEE, TO HAVE AND TO HOLD FROM THIS DAY FORWARD, FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE, FOR RICHER OR FOR POORER, IN SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH, TO LOVE AND TO CHERISH; FROM THIS DAY FORWARD UNTIL DEATH DO US PART.

YAY (: ling rocks.

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we loved because He first loved us.

2005-09-27T05:06:00.000-07:00

thank you chao and sumae for the ecards! <3 youuu loads (:

thank you julia for your early birthday wish on friendster (sorry i forgot xD)

thank you thashi, for the birthday wish as well as for being such a rocking duty partner! you never fail to cheer me up with your very sweet smiles and cheery laughter. i'd miss doing duty with you! (: have a fun time in the board! <33!

thank you my dear BUDDIES ray and nard for the very pretty birthday card. if i were to evaluate myself as a buddy the past 9 months, i'd have to say i failed terribly, and i dont even get like a DEVELOPING. youre right buddies, im 14, and i should stop being scared of you all anymore. but anyhow, im thankful for such nice buddies, <3 you two very much.

thank you juan for your birthday wish, i hope you're feeling very much better now. finally! the calm after the storm. dont lose hope! and im very sorry i couldnt go meet you during recess today, had last-minute math lesson. i'd go look for you tomorrow kay. <3!

2005-09-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EEEEEE
YOU WERE BORN IN THE SEA
YOU LOOK LIKE AN OCTUPUS
AND YOU SWIM LIKE ONE TOO!
-gab the irritating!-

today has been a rocking day yay!

i woke up to my che's "WAKE UP VEE LETS GO TO CHURCH" then i woke up and saw the presnts by the bed and i opened them. i almost cried when i saw them. ah i feel loved. (: then i changed very quickly and realised daddy's car couldnt start so we had to take the train. we left home at around 8, and i knew by the time we got there the auditorium would be filled ): yeah and just as i expected che and i had to go to the overflow room. and even the overflow room was so packed. i was so thankful we found two seats side-by-side, though it was at the back few rows x)

service was very very very very very good. i love today's service. pastor prince was exceptionally funny and extremely inspirational. (: of all the verses he preached today i like john 14:27 the best!

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let
not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

and after pastor's sermon i felt very inspired. im never gonna let any worries bog me down, im gonna be a happy girl. because God has already given me peace, and this peace is in me. but because i always get worried at the slighest anything and almost everything in my life, i am unable to feel God's peace. but i havent lost my peace. my soul is filled with God's peace. its because my worries have caused me not to dare to let God's peace into me. its just like having a room full of wheat, but a very small door which is closed, as compared with a big door which is opened. if im never gonna open that small door and enlarge it, im never gonna feel the peace
that God has given to me. therefore, i shall not worry (: amen!

then after lunch che and i walked all the way from suntec back to citylink mall to marina square and then finally we reached millenia walk. just to buy wonka bars for sam and CERTAIN SOMEBODIES. AHEM. XD and i have realised that i have zero sense of direction. thankfully che was with me x)

yay that was basically my day. i mean uh, morning. NOW FOR THANKYOU TIME!
thank you daddy, mommy, che and di for your birthday wishes and presents, and for your love! that roxy shirt was really nice mom. and che, thank you for treating me to lunch and walking all the way to millenia walk with me! <3

thank you besties gab and ling! gab for your really sweet card and bear and that octopus-y birthday song (which was so not true) and the blog entry! and ling for your clock with SOOO MANY I LOVE YOUS! I KNEW YOU LOVE ME! dont be shy! xD
thank you choochooooooooooooooo MY ILLICIT LOVER for coming online at 12 this morning and i apologise for not being online): i came home really late heh. AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR SWEEEET EMAIL AND DRAWING ! <3!

thank you sab for the notebook and the cd and BEAN. SWOONS. beanissocutejustlikeyou. I PRAY WE GET INTO HSSRP NEXT YEAR SO WE CAN SPEND THE NEXT 2 YEARS TOGETHER. YAY. yohure so sweet!

thank you yajie for your hug on friday and for calling me early this morning to wish me happy birthday! <3!

NOW FOR THE HEARTWARMER. thank you lisa sijia yile mel des limin sab yingjing jess and ling for THE WHITE FLAME VCD. (FINE I ADMIT I COULDNT WAIT TILL TODAY TO OPEN IT SO I OPENED IT YESTERDAY). and i teared. it was really touching how you guys bought the vcd for me just cuz i said i'd be missing the last episode and AFTER HOW I PROCLAIMED MY LOVE FOR RONG DEJI. thank you all for making my life so filled with rongdeji! yay! <3

thank you jac, peiying, yingjing, sab, ling, zhizhi my crush!, lisa!, chenhoon, kevy, nicole, chris, ian, kevin for wishing me happy birthday online!

thank you minjia, ling and gab for your nicenice ecards!

thank you huuuuusena for your call!

thank you pingfang suet yingjing for your smses!

thank you jac and kevy for your birthday testimonials!

thank you b for your email!

thank you xinling peiying gab yingjing lisa jas char for your sweetsweet tags! i shall save them here!

xinling: hihi....have a fabulous birthday=)
peiying: OH HAPPY BDAE VIVIEN! i didnt realise it was you bdae until i saw today's date on my watch and church prog booklet. and of course your tagboard. >.<
gab: HEYYA irritating tablemate. i woke up a little later than i thought i would. haha. so it's 11:42 am now. HAPPY BDAE.
Ying Jing: Happy Birthday Vivien!! Can you check your mother's hp?thanks
GAB: GOOD NITEEE. <3 YOU
gab: HAPPY ROCKING BDAE AND HAVE A NICE DAY AHEAD OF YOU. YEPPP. <3 YOU AND YOU ARE OFFICIALLY IN THE FABULOUS FANTASTIC FOURTEEN LEAGUE
gab: WHEEEEEEEE EE NAH. IT'S 12 MIDNITE
gab: yoyoyo. it's 2 minutes to midnite.
gab: will be back at 12 midnight. XD
gab: and one more thing. haha. <3 you.
gab: haha. HAPPY BDAE YEPS? HAHA. CYA DEAR.
gab: YOYOYO WOMAN. IT'S CURRENTLY 11:01:35
lisa: happy birthday dear! (:
::jasmine::: haha it's 2 more hours to your birthday! yay here's an early happy birthday!
lene: YO VIVIEN! u horny hotel 81 woman!!

ah i feel so loved. (: thank you all for making my birthday such a rocking one. i <3 you all very much.

with God's peace and love, im gonna live my life fully, like the fullness of God's grace. amen!

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANNEH AND FIONA! (:

PPS: I FORGOT, HOLY MATRIMONY ROCKED. CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR MARRIAGE JOANNE CHE XD

2005-09-24T01:12:00.000-07:00

I AM GOING TO ATTEND MY COUSIN'S HOLY MATRIMONY IN HALF AN HOURS' TIME.

YAY (:

lijie: HI LIJIE IM YOUR SECRET ADMIRER! you turn me on. XD

gab: yo woman! im good at math. u+i= TWO NUMBERS FOR YOU TO GUESS! and i updated kay! yay! thank you for all your love.

dessie: cuz my name's eenah? heh XD

yingjing: HI yingjing (: have you decided if youre gonna change?

meiyang: hello pretty! my mom doesnt allow me to continue jiang next year the same time you know ))):

ling: HI LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENG! I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU. (:

peiying: thank you dear (: (im obssessed with you) lol XD

wenda: yo wenda! (:

2005-09-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

you know what?

thank you very much for everything, especially your (in)appreciation. yea really. thanks a lot for today. you didnt have to resort to that to run me down. its not a matter of whos up there, even if strangers were up there nobody would be called out last.

so really, thank you. your kindness is very much appreciated.

ive lost count of my tears.

because nobody cares anymore. if they even did in the first place.

and yes everybody, gloat. run me down further.

bye.

maybe the only one thing which worked out today was parliament. even though i almost got detained cuz i didnt have any form of identification. still, parliament rocked. maybe i can be the serjeant-at-arms when i grow up so i'd have pretty muscles carrying that 9kg mace.

anyhow, i place my life in Your hands Lord.

amen.

(i'd reply to tags some other day people. im sorry)

ps: happy birthday darling bro(:

pps: ALL THE BEST FOR PIANO TOMORROW GAB DEAR. DO YOUR BEST(:

2005-08-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

if i had taken the mrt today i would have saved at least twelve and a half bucks. yet to think i was i rushed all the way down in a cab which cost me thirteen freaking bucks even though i had already spent over my planned ten-dollar expenditure this week.

why? because i didnt want you guys to wait for too long.

so much for my thoughtfulness.

when i reach you say youve already left. couldnt you have called me to inform me that you were leaving the place before you guys left so i could have turned back halfway. then i wouldnt have had to spend my precious thirteen bucks and half an hour to get there only to stupidly find out that you guys left only when i reached there and then having to go all the way back to where i came from.

its like wasting time and money travelling from a to b and back to a again without even spending three minutes at b.

am i an idiot or an idiot.

2005-08-19T07:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA DARLING! <3

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(very overdue) shoutouts:
minsi, jac, geet, mich, vera: hi chingching jacco geeeethaa michelle and vera (: i love you guys truckloads (: i miss concert ):

shaorou: hello jiang partner! go read hulaoshi's msn space! XD

peiying&chanel: okay THANK YOU PEIYING FOR LENDING ME YOUR BRO'S FUNKY HEART-SHAPED GLASSES FOR SECTIONAL ITEM. and hello chanel the dodo sleepybird! if i hadnt poked you you would already be in lala land!

jas: my pleasure (: pink and red are nice colours. HOHO

gab&ling: HI NUTTY CHEM PARTNERS gab the great and lovely loser ling (oxymoron!)
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speech day tomorrow. am i supposed to be happy or sad or what.

2005-08-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

encore 2005
rgschoir
university cultural centre

so it came, and it went. just like that. it was a BLAST. we ROCKED in every way and every way possible. and nothing would have been possible without the

secfours!

thank you SUMAE for being the extremely charming prince marc charming, for putting in so much for the choir, encore would not have been such a BOOM without you(:

thank you CHER and XINZI for being such pretty and lovelay sectional leaders, for the beautiful
sectional item which saw me looking being and feeling like a tooted loser and idiot XD

thank you XIUMIN i dont know how i could have survived without you moo (: for tolerating my nonsense despite my WONDERFUL skill at cutting cloth and handling the scissors. im gonna miss you like crazy when you leave )):

thank you YILUN the wonderful secretary who is seriously sweeeeet and for being such a rocking mulan. (can we like, fight or something! :DD)

thank you YILYN for being such a rocking choir chair, nothing would have been the same without you x)

thank you SARAHS for the wonderful scriptwriting(:

secthrees!

thank you the five beauties SUET JAC JOO GEET CHINGCHING for being so sweet and nice and lovely and huggable and encouraging! i am VERY LUCKY to have such rocking seniors like YOU x) <3

thank you JOO for all the encouragement and all the times we sat in the pb room talking about everything and everything that was bothering us. you rock my socks and i love you like crazy (:

thank you BRAIN for your rocking piano playing and for being such a hot jsl; and also for not scolding me when i always mess up your hair

thank you SNEHA for your pinafore whenever i needed to change during rehearsals, and for being my gay partner and pronouncing brain and i man and man when lisa eloped with another man XD

thank you QUANQUAN the royal guard, SHUEN and MAVIS snowwhite for being so sweet and laughy! <3!

my batchmates sectwos!

LISA. words cannot express how much you mean to me. thank you for being there for me, for all the encouragement, for helping me through. what would i do without you? i <3 you

thank you CHAO and SHUYU for all your pokes and for never failing to cheer me up with all the lame jokes and TIGERBABE-ness.

thank you SHIAO VAL JIAJUN for all youve done though we dont talk often. you guys rock my socks anyhow!(:

secones!

thank you KAYLEIGH my dear seaweed and PEIYING and CAROLYN for never failing to make my day with your smiles and jokes and being so extremely sweet youre giving me cavities (:

thank you CHANEL and ZAN for making sop two rock and making choir practices always so fun and a thing to look forward to.

thank you GUIQI SAM AND VERA for your sweet smiles and hugs

thank you FIONA ELIZA MICHELLE MICHELE FRANCES PATRICIA for all the effort you have put in to make encore such a success x)

can you imagine a piece of the universe more fit for princes and kings.

thank you rgschoir for EVERYTHING. you guys mean the world to me.

<3

2005-07-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

someone enlighten me as to why ucc has to ban people with flowers from entering.

there go my flowers.

piano exam tomorrow. God bless me.

2005-07-24T17:31:00.000-07:00

haha its compy studies now so i decided to blog cuz firstly im extremely bored and secondly i realised i havent been blogging for eons and gab and yingjing keep on asking me to update. so i shall x)

tweet is currently beside me asking what to do and i think she gave up so shes watching happytreefriends. i think i have writers block cuz everytime i open this window thingum i dont know what to write. (:

i spent the entire of yesterday reading gossipgirl and undomestic goddess other than going to church in the morning and to the studio for piano lesson in the afternoon. my piano exam's on friday and i am surprisingly not worried at all. i wonder why. anyway im going on wednesday to practise again and its my fourth time there and my mom thinks im nuts. hoho.

thank you yingjing and jellyfish for talking to me last night and giving me advice and everything x) i love you all very much. and yingjing, i <3 your byebye too.

haha i dont know why i kinda miss talking to kayleigh. i cant wait to go for choir tomorrow (:

hi i dont like vivien cos she doesnt want to teach me a'thing during lab OR comp studs. evil pok. ):

tweet is mad. i teach her stuff during lab okay! but not comp studs. CUZ IM EQUALLY LOST X) understand tweet! anyway tweet thinks im trying to act cute when i say compy studies. i dont need to act cute tweet im naturally cute. THANK YOU THANK YOU.

my tagboard's filled with tags from gab and yingjing haha. hello xiangying hello kevy the LAOPO eileen and jojo!

i estimate the bell's gonna ring in 3 minutes. and since this comp takes extremely long to shut down and i predict its gonna hang cuz my dreamweaver window is open, i better go now.

God bless (:

2005-07-04T08:51:00.000-07:00

i love theodora kee shu'en the diagonally-lopsided dory and i genuinely mean it.

she probably wouldnt see this but anyhow, she's such an angel.

<333

ps: i shall reply to tags soon its already past midnight. love you all loads.

2005-06-22T06:52:00.000-07:00

i thank God for nice friends and seniors.

i love yingjing. yes yingjing, its the great wall of china!

i love sumae. alot.

this may sound cliched, but i guess words cant express the feeling you get inside when youre feeling so rubbishy and depressed when suddenly a cheery friend pops out and tells you about the d-word alert, about the new album which she's gonna release in august and her nice voice, sings the three tigers song to you, asks you if its anti-depressant or anti-depression, says youve gotten sucked in by thirsty hippo and nudges you a gazillion times; and when suddenly a very understanding and encouraging senior pops out and asks you how you are and what happened and emphathises with you and makes you say it all out so ultimately you feel okay.

thank you sumae and yingjing very much.

2005-06-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

alright i guess im feeling a little better; thank you you (:

five random things which i did/wanna do

1. i trimmed my hair and fringe yesterday. now i have a smallsmall ponytail like sa ! (she still doesnt know yet)

2. I BOUGHT OLIVIA ONG'S ALBUM <3 roxox my soxox

3. i went to library @orchard this afternoon and found the turn left turn right book ive always been looking for. x)

4. yingjing hasnt replied since idontknowwhattime when i said HI to her. i miss the swing at her house.

5. i wanna watch theweddingdate again. XD

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ning: hello stunning one! haha okay shall link you. I DONT LIKE DUMPLING BY THE WAY. XD

yingjing: YEH SHARING THE BED AND GOING INTO THE BATHROOM TOGETHER. HOW SCANDALOUS. anyway are you going for the gathering this weekend?

ju: hieee ju! haha you finally realise that this ju and that ju are the same people ! blurrqueen (:

shamie: hi sham! haha you know everything about it i know already!

shaun: haha hi shaun! do you needa change your blog song?

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peace out(:

2005-06-21T05:08:00.000-07:00

dear Lord, i leave my life in Your hands-

things havent been going on very smoothly recently.

i shall reply to tags soon.

2005-06-18T05:24:00.000-07:00

went to rda for sl today with fwee. yeh and there were TWO CATS there. AND OBVIOUSLY I WAS TRAUMATISED. coughsdontlaughcoughs. but the horses were cute! and when the cat came running over i was scrreeeeeaming. and the guy was like. HAHA YOURE NOT SCARED OF HORSES YET YOURE SCARED OF CATS. hah. >.<

and i repeat im artistically challenged so i obviously dont know why i was there PAINTING HORSESHOES. at least spraypainting isnt that bad. i suppose i could manage that. BUT TO GET ME TO paint patterns and designs and all on horseshoes IS SOMETHING I TOTALLAY CANNOT DO. but at least i tried and my designs turned out horrrrrible. like if fwee's designs sell for 20bucks mine would be. 5 bucks. or 2 bucks. XD.

and not forgetting the hundreds of thousands of flies and the two horribly harmless cats (yet i dont know why im afraid of them) ginger and tiger, who were DISTURBING US.

BUT THE CHILDREN ARE VERY VERY VERY VERY CUTEEE. i think sidewalking's fun! maybe i should do that during the yearend holidays (: but i think im underage. ohwell X)

DONT YOU REALISE I LIKE TO TYPE IN CAPS. ITS BECAUSE OF SIMYENYENBABY.

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jo!: hah hi jo thanks for tagging youre so sweeeeet (: hoped you enjoyed siloso beach !

gab: hello gab thanks ;D

marcus: hi marcus. my favourite classmate? haha. ms chang was fun

limin: YES I REALISED ITS SUCH A MOUTHFUL. BUT OHWELL XD

YINGJING!: HI CINNAMONROLL. haha yeh i checked my friendster account, thankyou! for more information, refer to your own blog =D

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God bless(:

2005-06-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

im feeling very sorry cuz i just killed a fly.

i mean, two flies.

shutterfly's taking ten million years to load my pics.

yay and my tagboard's finally up. the tags were from eons ago =X

the universe is a beautiful place, and im standing smack-dab in the middle of it.

2005-06-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

down at your feet o Lord,
is the most high place.

2005-06-14T05:55:00.000-07:00

yay im finally back from china! okay actually i was back a week ago x) just that i was too lazy to blog. (:

i guess this trip really bonded the twofivers who went. i grew so much closer to my dear roomie yingjing, sab, jia, sa and mel.

thank you you all for those memories!

to yingjing: thankyou for being such a wonderful friend and roomie dear! how we had trouble finding our chexiang the first night we were on the train; how we woke up freezing in the middle of the night; our experiences with the wenchongs on the small lil sampan, how you used your hongqi to swat all the wenchongs away; how you volunteered to pull your luggage the same way as me and look like an idiot with me and how you comforted me after that; how we imitated mel's crush in the bus; how we went into the toilet together at tom business hotel; how you always shared your discman with me; how you tolerated all my crap about anotnio even though you positively did not fancy him; all the nicenice photos we took together; all our latenight chats and parties and all! and our ohveryneat cabins and hotel rooms and the ohveryshitteh toilet bowl (the jing dian!) ; AND OUR WANGZAI NIUNAI! OH and how WE OVERSLEPT. AND I DIDNT HAVE MY USUAL MORNING BATH. I FELT SO FILTHY. ;D!

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to mel: how we ate cupnoodles together, shared the oh so horrible orange-like fruit, played daidi on our bunks, i mean your bunk x), then you letting me hear the ohmygoodnesssoappropriate song while i gazed admiringly at antonio, then how you shared with me stuff about God, and how we coughsattemptedbutfailed to squeeze into the same bunk which ended up horribly with me having to go back to my own bunk. haha i bet you had a OHMYGOODNESSSOWONDERFUL sleep after that! xD

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if youre not the one-daniel beddingfield

if youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
if you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
if you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
if you are not mine would i have the strength to stand at all

i never know what the future brings
but i know you are here with me now
we'll make it through
and i hope you are the one i share my life with

i don't want to run away but i can't take it, i don't understand
if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am
is there any way that i can stay in your arms

if i don't need you then why am i crying on my bed?
if i don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
if you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
if you're not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife?

i don't know why youre so far away
but i know that this much is true
we'll make it through
and i hope you are the one i share my life with
and i wish that you could be the one i die with
and i pray in you're the one i build my home with
i hope i love you all my life

i don't want to run away but i can't take it, i don't understand
if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
is there any way that i can stay in your arms

cuz i miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
and i breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cuz oi love you, whether it's wrong or right
and though i can't be with you tonight
and know my heart is by your side

this song means a lot to me. after the trip <3

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to jia: thank you for being so gentlemanly and nice and for being my bodyguard and the MACHO MAN among us! i can never forget the bug incident! lisa: -shrieks! SIJIAAAA. THERES A BUG ON THE CURTAIN me: SCREAMS VERY LOUDLY yingjing: covers her head in her body. sab: runs away and sijia was like. COMING COMING SIJIA TO THE RESCUE. and then she will take some tissue paper, flick the curtains and catch the bug. and thank you for comforting me when i was going bonkers about antonio at the beutiful beijing hotel. (NO VIEN. WATCH TV! WATCH TV! THE CARTOON!) xD

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to sab: thank you for being very very very thoughtful and nice and ultra considerate! you are just perfect! thanksss for your blue rubberband too ;D yes and so sab was the one who is always the calmest among us all, and the most considerate one. as much as she is not tired and still wanna remain at the party, she'd still return to her room to accompany des. aw (:

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to sa: thank you for entertaining us with your bean syndrome! shhhhh, bean's sleeeeping! AND I THINK OUR PARTIES ROCK. DONT YOU THINK SO! XD

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yepp and so we had loads of fun in china. shall upload pics soon ;D